“Fear and trembling” are the words from the Bible that popped into my head, as I went to record podcast episodes 1 & 2 these past two weeks.
Fear and trembling, not so much about what people would think of me, but that if anyone is listening who is not a believer- what they would think of Him because of what I said.
I have the Fear of God in me.
Which does not mean that He is scary.
He should only be scary to those who are not on his side, not his daughters or sons.
The Fear of God is more like a deep reverence. Respect.
Concern for what He thinks.
I feel a fear of rejection, but not the same old one I used to have, that would have to assuage myself with reminders that “it’s not me they’re rejecting {when I was in direct sales}, it’s the opportunity.” Because in my heart I would rather someone reject me personally than reject the opportunity to get to know my friend, Jesus.
So I just want to “get it right”, you know?
I don’t want to just turn on a mic and ramble,
as if what I say doesn’t really matter
because if I believed that then I wouldn’t be doing it at all. Because podcasting vs. writing is NOT comfortable for me. Not one bit right now.
And yet it feels that way at times.
{Like I’m just rambling}.
And I have to fight that feeling too.
The lie that I’m just a rain drop in a hurricane.
That in this season of utter chaos, the “ripple effect” has gone out the window.
Because there’s already so many voices out there-shouting-
and here I am,
flesh overwhelmed by all the “noise”
like a deer in headlights,
yet soul provoked more than ever to speak up for TRUTH.
So that I find it impossible to be silent, even when my flesh would rather be.
Fear and trembling,
Because I’m afraid to “preach it” wrong.
Or predict it wrong. {That Jesus is coming soon.}
But in prayer He reminds me that
I don’t need to call myself a prophet or a teacher-
Jesus will come when He will come,
But what people do need to know is that
the Holy Spirit is already RIGHT HERE.
An ever-present, real-time, available-to-us HELP.
A comforter.
An advocate.
A friend.
An intercessor.
THE FILLER.
Because too many of us are living dried up,
Trying to get filled, in the world.
Trying to fill others in our own power.
And all the while there is a better Way.
Him.
HE is THE Way, THE Truth, THE LIFE.
And only through Him do we eternally succeed.
And though our own salvation has zero to do with works, we do have work to do- which is extending the opportunity for salvation through Jesus to others,
And He makes himself available to help us accomplish this.
And so even when it’s scary,
or out of my comfort zone,
or it feels like it doesn’t matter
(because I’m just one voice amongst millions),
or like there are plenty of other better-equipped people out there to spread God’s message…
Because He asked me to share and keep sharing,
I will.
I will trust that it matters because He says it does.
I will take this imploring personally, and I will exhort other Jesus-followers to as well:
“…Be energetic in your life of salvation,
reverent and sensitive before God.
That energy is God’s energy,
an energy deep within you,
God himself willing and working
at what will give him the most pleasure.
Do everything readily and cheerfully—
no bickering,
no second-guessing allowed!
Go out into the world uncorrupted,
a breath of fresh air
in this squalid and polluted society.
Provide people with a glimpse of good living
and of the living God.
Carry the light-giving Message into the night
so I’ll have good cause to be proud of you
on the day that Christ returns…”
Philippians 2:12-16 MSG
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